Written Feb. 22nd

Today I got hiking shoes for my trip. I went to dance practice and it turned out to be really positive and we got a ton accomplished, it was amazing! It's amazing how much a positive attitude going into somethign makes it so much better.
I finally booked my flight. I leave on the 11th of March! Everything just hit me. Up to this point all my planning has been really surreal and I didnt even realize it up until now. This is actually happening. Im so exited, alittle intimidated, but this will be so good for me! I cant wait to absorb everything around me! I want out of my little Ohio bubble so bad!

Written Feb. 21st

Today I had dance. We had to perform our senior dance and it was aweful. I was really concerned that sundays practice would be really tense. Im beginning to get less stressed, just a small amout though. When I'm this stressed I cant stand to just sit aroudn my house and relaz and do nothing, especially with such a huge list of stuff I need to do.
Im really concerned about money. I really hope applying to the experience fund will help.
Writing journal entries on weekends is really difficult.

Written Feb. 20th

Oh my goodness. Im so stressed I think its making me physically sick. I did not feel good when I woke up and at seminar I just began to feel progressivelyt worse. Then my mom and Liz had a meeting. I feel like people are shooting down my walkabout. Even if im wrong in trying to do so much stuff, and I understand linworth needs an initial plan, I can always change my mind when I get there. As far as safety is concerned..Linworth has sent people to Haiti. As long as I have a cell phone and everyone knows where I am all the time and I pay attention to what's going on around me, I think I'll be fine.
I had a bit of a breakdown today. I wasn't feeling well and missed the coolest shoot ever at the studio. However I did get some stuff that needed to be accomplished done after I woke up from a nice logn nap and once I was feeling alittle better.

Written Feb. 19th

I wore a new dress today and i felt so good all day. I was super excited for all our reps to come see the studio. Everyday seems to be another confirmation of how well I work with clients, and I love working with them too! I also love coming into the staudio in the morning and blasting music while I clean alone. It's a really good way to start the day. Im actually starting to look forward to cleaning.
Matt sent me a text tonight about how much he appreciates my hard work and time. It was super sweet and such good encouragement since I hate when I feel that I'm doing things wrong.
I like changing things up. Switching the tsudio furniture around was super great today! I really like the change of sorroundings(or the illusion of a change).

Written Feb. 18th

IM SO STRESSED!!! So for today's journal I'm going to write a list of everything that's stressing me out/ things that I need to do.
-Join AAA(buy eurorail pass+travel money card)
-Book RCI condos for Europe Trip
-Dance(is consuming my time!!)
-Buy camera equipment(amongst other things) for Europe
-Catch up on Journals
-Trying to keep up with friends
-Not being able to drive is AWEFUL
-..so is not having any money
-Chelsea not being here
-Cleaning my room(WHEN?!)
-Applying to Warren Wilson
-My hair..is turning into dreads.Bleh.

Written Feb. 11

I realized again today the importance of always having my camera on me. It's been seeming like a hassle lately, especially since the winter doesn't really inspire me too often. However, today I saw a double full arched, super clear rainbow! And I didn't have my camera!

Note to Self: Glue my camera to my body as to not be constantly frusterated.

Written Feb. 10

Today I promoted again. I was talking to this kid and he got super duper pissed that I asked him to be a rep. He was threatening us and everything. I feel like if he really knew me in person he wouldn't have been such a jerk. People are so much more comfortable being mean when they arent face to face.I mean, I was just trying to do my job, that's all. This made me realize I'm guilty of the same thingjust very rarely and definitely not to the same degree. However, these people that society is mean to are only doing their jobs, or acting how they've been raised. Society should be a little more forgiving, I think we could all benefit.